1 yr photos, elmo and March of Dimes

I was going to make my title etc, etc, etc, which I should have done but oh well.
this weekend was overwhelming.

Saturday- went to get torries one yr photos done as well as family pictures of the three of us. They came out pretty good, and I really thought i was doing a jammin job at the gym until i saw those pics. I look like a beached whale. really i did. this is how the convo went.

I ran off to the bathroom while we waited to preview the pics, and they were done before i returned so G was already looking at them.

G: bay, your not going to like these
Me:why? (still walking to where he is)
G: snickering, just come here
Me: OMG I LOOK LIKE AN EFFING BEACHED WHALE.

there was only one other woman there at the time and she busted out laughing at me, i felt like turning around and saying get over yourself Biznatch like your a toothpick yourself!

Moving on, we got great pics of torrie and had her invitations done as well and i will pick them up on may 7th.

G suggested we window shop at the mall since it was nearby and I agreed. and To our surprise old navy was having a "family day" with Meet ELMO, amongst other things that i did not wish to subject myself to.
turns out elmo and Torrie are great buds, she even groomed his fur while we were there.

Then we went home and we all napped and ate chicken and went to bed.

And Then! it was time for the march of dimes walk. Torrie woke up as Torrence and I felt like I was going to vom, so I'm pretty sure this week I will be sick with whatever the hell torrie was feeling last week.

can i just use one word to describe the walk? okay good

OVER EFFIN WHELMING.

I am so thankful to everyone who came and showed support I really didnt think that many people would come, even people I didnt know came and that was awesome,
but I also feel like I was a shitty host and didnt get to express my excitement and thanks for them coming, but I really do not do good in those kind of situations, when I get overwhelmed I shut down. if torrie wasnt being so blah and G and my family werent in a rift, I probably would have been slightly calmer. But I wasnt and Its overwith and yea. and not to mention I got completely separated from my group which totally pissed me off and probably pissed them off too,  but again, its already over with.
Thanks everyone, especially maryann, because she reads my blog and she gets me and she came even tho she had a headache! Love ya!

This post is all over the place, I just wish I was a better host, So now I'll just post a few pics I was able to get at the end of the walk, I wish i got a group pic and I wish I was able to get more with my friends. :(

Torrie and Her dad.

Torrie and Me.

Me Torrie throwing a fit and some friends that we go wayy back with.

The End.

I'm going to bed and Moving on with my life.

I need to not be a debbie downer.

And it remains..

The fever that is, Torrie has been running a 103 fever for about three days now, I have been home with her for those three days now and I'm about to go ape monkeys soon.
So today we trucked it to get Torrie catheterized to make sure she didn't have a UTI, at my insistence of course, i just hate the word "virus" ugh and I refuse to believe there isn't something more going on. so anyway, they did what i asked, and I never cried more. Torrie's father was bawling his eyes out and so was I, after we both insisted we would be fine to participate in holding her down, turns out, we became a bowl full of mush after seeing her face heartbroken. UGH I never want to do this again. can I get a nanny that can just take her to do all this dirty work?

In the end, she doesn't have a UTI  and everything that has a hole is clear, ears, eyes, nose, mouth.
SO whats my answer? its a VIRUS. of course, my favorite word.
oh and BTW if that doesn't settle your stomach, come back again on Saturday if she still is spiking a fever.

Really? cause no, That's a no only if we can come after Torrie's one year pics, because we are going to those come hell or high water.

plus, her illness is really cutting into my gym time. I can see why the sitch likes GTL, because I'm really starting to dig it too. which i really want to chat about but I cant talk about it until Tuesday.

Fit Tuesday (on a wednesday)

Okay, so things have been a little crazy over here, Torrie is sick with the stomach bug really bad, and its quite gross, we have been snuggling alot and I haven't been able to attend to my computer. I just wish she would stop getting sick, she suffered so much worse in the NICU but now she keeps getting these little things that make me more nervous then when she had 800 wires sticking out of her body parts.

other than that, we booked the hall for her first birthday party this past weekend and we are very very excited to get to planning! Its not exactly what I had dreamed of but it will work and we will have fun.
Her first birthday pictures are this saturday (i know i know way to early) but listen! it is all for good reason. we are getting her pics done, then we are making them into the invites for her party! so they take about two weeks to come back, and that will bring us to the secondish week in may and then I will have to jet to go pick them up and send them out so they are arriving at peoples houses 3weeks before the partyish. I am inviting over 100 people which i know not nearly that many will show up so that is why it is important that I get them out early enough so i have a good # in my head about how many attendees I will be having.

And Torrie is crawling, she is into everything and anything and it is driving me bonkers!! Terrible 1's anyone? anyone? HELLO IS ANYONE OUT THERE?! jk, its not that bad but its worse then I thought.


AND without further adu-

The peeping Tom is now at the gym regularly which freaks me out, although im pretty sure he went all the time before but I just didnt notice until he became the peeping tom. did i mention im still freaked out?

FIT TUESDAY (on a wednesday!!)

Start weight: 162
Goal weight 120-130

DRUMROLL PLEASE

this week's weight

ONE EFFIN SIXTY TWO

thats right ladies im still 162 pounds WTF.

Ive been to the gym almost every night since last tuesday, ive cut my porportions in half, AND I QUIT SODA. and nada, zilch, nun.

yep, and thats my vent.
so I'm going on a more hardcore diet and really working harder, although i can barely move my limbs as it is, but i must work harder.

how cute is this little princess!! (please ignore the scrub in the back)

I Quit

First of all, I ate chinese food in the parking lot of the gym. Thats a mortal sin isnt it? Cus I'm pretty sure it is and I'm also pretty sure i did it. And i chowed down AND I LIKED IT. screw it, i worked hard tonight, so that little fumble before I went in was no biggie.
Then i worked out, like any normal night at the gym and then i went tanning. Uhm but since when are locks not meant to lock things because this guy walked in on me nakie!!! OMG and i screamed. So i quickly got dressed and ran out mortified because i look like a lump of lard since i was preggo and gave birth. I saw him on my way out and gave him the stank eye.
I went back to working out hiding in the corner. I was getting ready to go when i see him coming from afar. I do my "im trying not to laugh " look and stare at the ceiling. WTF this is not kindergarten but damn am i embarrassed. So now he comes up to me with his hand out and has the nerve to introduce himself! His name was phil by the way, and then he tries to chat me up. But im not having it. So i continue to laugh in his face like im not embarrassed and then he says whats your name. I tell him and he says well you look good ill see you around. Are you mother effing kidding me. I look like a piece of dog shit that it kicked dirt on and then someone rolled their bike thru it. I look good. Yea and your a sucker for naked women.

Ugh. Then i went home and finished my chinese and wallowed in  my pity.

Shrek

Any one see a vague connection between torrie and shrek's princess fiona???

Birds

I am deathly afraid of birds.
this is why:
when i was around 6-7 I had long hair, like down to my rear-end long hair. my mom would do all sorts of funky things with it like put ribbons and yarn and make braids, etc. Most of the time I liked "pigtails",
On one particular day, I was at my cousins house at a picnic, we were playing in their pool. I was swimming and my hair had gotten all wet and tangled. I was wearing pigtails. they were an intertwined and knotted mess. my grandmother kept talking about getting the "snarls" out later. sheesh I HATED when she brushed my hair.
earlier my we had noticed a momma with baby birds. we laughed because my mom was preggo with my youngest sister, she was so big she couldn't reach past her belly.
(this is all important I promise)
Hot dogs were done!! whoooo hoo! we all rush to the table. we see the baby bird trying to fly, the baby bird flies, the baby bird lands in my intertwined hair nest.
my mom cant reach past her stomach to my head.
I'm screaming
my moms screaming
my aunt comes running from inside
they get the bird off
I'm scarred for life.

I. HATE, BIRDS.

but as i was driving today the sun was in a funky mood, it was hitting the ground on such an odd way for the day/time of year that it was.
I was driving and all i could see was a bird chilling out in the middle of the road. i saw his shadow,
I thought about running him over but i decided not to.
i laughed instead. birds are so weird looking they re so ugly.
I drew a picture of the shadow i saw.

ugly isn't it?


In other news Torrie mastered the straw!

Is it just me?!

Well Ladies, I have been suffering from exhaustion for the last couple of days since i joined the gym. I've been doing my best to work my ass off (literally) and my ass is putting up a good fight. Also, the soda withdrawals are killing me, I'm trying to be strong but i might need to go to sodaholics anonymous.

Sooo Hollaaa if you think there's no reason to have public showers at the gym!!!

me! i holla!!
let me share my reasons why BESIDES the fact that its a breeding ground for disgusting germs and fungus's and all things NASTY.
I was peacefully walking thru the woman's locker room to go tanning when I rounded the corner to find this lard lovely woman sitting NAKIE on the bench in the waiting room. I try to look out the corner of my eyes to see all of her rolls what she was doing nakie on the bench but i just kept trucking it to the tanning bed with my friend dragging me along saying "shut up Sam and come on" I knew she knew what i was thinking. so as I'm laying in my tanning bed snickering and wondering why on earth it is necessary to have this locker room here she is hopping in the shower next door!
EW..

i just think this is nasty. i just don't understand why we need to have locker rooms for people to get nakie, shower,blow-dry and do stuff in. you should just come in the clothes you work in, take your stank butt to your car, drive home, share your germs with your own family and stop, just stop spreading more diseases and shit around America.

a good friend of mine, who heard this story could think of one good reason, which i considered for two secs.
it was "maybe if they go before work they shower and then go"
i said okay, maybe
but then again NO. they should leave themselves enough time to get home and get showered and get to work or go another time.
did i mention i think its gross?
so next time i go tanning and they offer me to tan on the men's side, i think i might say yes, because id sure like to see some nakie's over there!!!



In other news,
Torrie is full pledged crawling, and shes a maniac, and i wish she just sat there again.

Fit Tuesday

Today is day one of the weekly fit Tuesdays!

Start weight: 162 as of 3pm today

Goal weight: 120-130 pounds!

I quit soda this morning, i know your like really? soda? most people claim vodka but no my friends my belligerent addiction is the coca cola, Pepsi drinks. The general reaction when i told my peers that i was quitting soda was......"for how long"
gee guys so much for a little moral support!!!

so, i carried on my sober self to four heaping glasses of water, before today i never knew water was edible!!

and so this is where i begin, I'm cutting back proportions and eliminating soda and coffee out of my life.

and tonight I am on my way to the GYM whoop whoop.




In other news the ADULT t-shirts for the march of dimes are in!! yay!!

I know this is a crap-tastic pic but the shirt is actually lilac.

Well, guess who stayed

That's right!! TORRENCE!!!
This is what happens when Torrie throws a tantrum for a whole hour because she doesn't want to nap!!

 Looks a little familiar to last nights great escape huh??  I'm thinking toddler hood is no day at the parade. Bring it!!!


(that's her milk she through on the floor for all those wondering)


I think i can make a pretty good stance at this point of why bumpers are/are not a good idea.

Meet Torrence AKA Torrie

Torrie is a Gemini. she is as two faced/ split-personality as it gets.
and when she gets that way she becomes Torrence, the bull fighter.

Today we have met the ultimate Torrence. she has pushed the limit in every way today.

but first off before i introduce you to the contender, let me tell you what an enjoyable day we had yesterday. yesterday we went to the beach with G, and my friend M and her baby J.
we had a great time. 

and then we got home and Torrie had a 102 fever, which progressed to 104 and came down to only 101 with Tylenol. we went to the docs this morning and she seems back to her old self but she will be staying home with me tomorrow just to be sure. because we are still on an every 4 hour Tylenol regimen.

okay so meet Torrence

Torrence is the master of escape plans

Torrence loves to do things that we say no to, and deliberately looks at us and smiles.
Torrence loves to hit (major pet peeve)
Torrence likes to stay up like there a party or something going to happen.
Torrence like to destroy things and throw tantrums.

Torrence likes to be entertained 24/7


Torrie likes to laugh and smile

Torrie likes to play alone and entertain herself.
Torrie likes to talk to animate and inanimate objects
Torrie likes to hug and cuddle in a short and sweet kind of way.


so the end, I'm dealing with twins. ugh- and i thought this was going to be easy with just one!

a slow death

on a lighter note-

on a more serious note-
that's the truth, i actually at 6 tacos and one crunch wrap supreme and topped it off with an over sized fountain Pepsi.

I'm dying inside- and i wonder why I'm 165 pounds 5'2" and ugh i just cant take it anymore. My blood pressure is still out of control from the pre-eclampsia and i know its my weight. I'm very tiny framed, i don't need this extra baggage.

back in January i lost 10 pound and gained most of it back. I am tired of seeing the letter L on the inside of my shirts, because in my mind I'm still and XS and I want to keep it that way!!

i want to be 120 pounds again and you guys are going to help me do it
here is an outline of my plan.

• fit Tuesday's are now on the board. every Tuesday i will post my weight and how much i lost and potentially write how i lost x amount of pounds that week
• join the gym- every week i say I'm going to join the gym and i don't, i AM joining this week.
• cut back- my biggest problem is that i overeat. this is the end of that, i need to gain portion control and be pickier about what i ingest.

• when i reach a plateau from cutting back i will start a stricter diet.

and so this is where we begin. This Tuesday will be the first weigh in. hopefully we can get this body in gear!!!!

Who knew she was so creative?

Why yes my friends, I am talking about myself- i am just beaming with fantastic excitement over my greatest creative achievement yet!

Introducing the T-shirt Torrie girl will be wearing to her walk!! after all she is the guest of honor!!


front

and back

this is for the march of dimes walk we will be participating on april 29th.
we are getting very excited at this point. the adult t-shirts will arrive via snail mail next week, and ill post a pic of those when they come!!!

remember you can donate here.

This is why i love daycare

they take the most ridiculous pics of my child and send them home.
oh what a great baby book this little chicken has.


actually i think this is one for awkward family photos!!

Torrie's first easter, A picture story!

First we woke up!! Yay torrie happy easter!

 Then we sat and played a little bit in our bunny PJ's and we ate breakfast

 Then we saw what the bunny brought us!!!

 and we examined it

 and we ripped it apart.

 Then we started our mid morning breakdown that.....

 Got worse

 and worse until....

 Total EFFIN' meltdown

but why? the bunny brought us such fun things!?!?!?

 so we took a nap and woke up like this!! ^^

 and  attempted failed at taking a good picture of the two of us.

 Then we went to G's mom's house (nana)

 and opened our baskets there :)

 then we went to the real party and got everything started, we played ball outside...

 and yelled at the boys riding bikes by us

 and danced with teetee (aunt)

 and the other teetee took torrie on the egg hunt while i took pictures!

 Torrie and teetee lexi looking for eggs!

 Look we found them!

 Everybody got prizes for finding eggies!

 Torrie got sunglasses and dresses and a baby chick, and a sippy cup and other goodies.

and in the end, we got a half way good pic of torrie and mommy (torrie in the middle mom on the right :)

Happy Easter Everyone!!