Dear Torrie

Dear Torrie,

It is hard to imagine that in just seven days you will be one year old.
Gosh I remember being a kid and one year seemed so long, and here you are in the blink of an eye SO big and smart and beautiful! It amazes me everyday how much you've grown in such little time. I miss your baby days and your sleepiness and the cuddling and the bottles and not the food. I miss your newborn smell and your teeny teeny and even teenier clothes. And now here you are so full of personality and life and adventures. O I just cant take it.

I know the posts have been rather lax in your favor lately. It seems we are in a funk of just living our day to day lives, we haven't had much fun lately, its been so crazy planning this party, and getting things together. I am sorry baby girl, with the exception of Tuesday this week will be all about you.

I was thinking this morning as I was watching you sleep, how I wonder what you will be like when your older. what will you look like? who will you look like? what skin color will you be? how will your voice sound? how tall will you be? how smart/kind/compassionate/caring will you be? will you like me? will you hate me? what kind of relationship will we have??

I don't know the future, but I do know that I can see you as a vibrant full of personality girl. You have a great personality already, your photogenic, you LOVE to make people laugh. when you see someone laugh or smile at your craziness you laugh and smile from the bottom of your belly. I see you as an entertainer or working with people. I see you as being smart and a problem solver. I see you as being able to communicate smoothly and easily with people. I see you as being like able and successful. I see you overcoming and demolishing every obstacle that ever comes you way. I see you as being strong and courageous/ political and controversial/ committed and determined to make your thoughts matter.

I just love you baby, and no matter what you ever come to be, there's one thing you will ALWAYS be and that's mine, and no matter what you are, that will never change.

always keep your smile, always keep your laughs, you will need them more than anything in this wild world!

So here it is the countdown to your first year of Life.
7 days left, and trying to stall it just a little longer!

 we made the march of dimes website, here's us walking for all the preemies just like you!


Love,
Mom.